Board Thread:Roleplaying/@comment-5320677-20140826123031/@comment-5583506-20140901205313

"Shabhira does not know how to break this to you, my love, but you turned... bad..."

He lowered his eyebrows. "How bad?"

She swallowed hard. "When we... when we thought that we all were truly safe. Free to pursue our own dreams, to live our own lives, released from our created purpose. Yet still the Guild saw us as a threat."

He could see that she almost began to cry. "Shabhira does not know what made you make that decision, Da'Shanji, but she..." She held back a sob. "... she forgives you. A messenger from the Guild met up with you. This one was wondering what the two of you were talking about. It didn't make any sense for you to be talking to that kind of people. Khajiit found out the hard way what the two of you had been discussing."

Gatz didn't like were this was going and could almost feel a lump down his throat.

"They had offered you wealth, a high ranked position, women, practically anything you pointed at, in exchange for something else." She lowered her head. "They wanted you to finish the rest of us off. We were a threat to them and they had convinced the most skilled of us to join their cause. You leapt through the hallways, guns blazing, you slaughtered Khajiit where they stood and watched as their lifeless bodies hit the metal floor. All in the name of greed and pride."

"Enough", said Gatz and gasped for breath. "Khajiit does not want to hear this!"

"They had blinded you with their wealth, their flattery about what an amazing specimen you were and promises of power."

Gatz looked away, afraid of looking her in the eyes due to his shame. "Enough, please! This one starts to remember! Enough!"

"You only spared a few of us", said Shabhira sadly. "But not enough so that we would be able to reproduce. This one is thankful for her life however. When you dragged me out to that pit of corpses which you had single-handedly filled, I thought that you were going to kill Shabhira as well."

"Stop it!" he cried. "Please! Gatz can't take it anymore!"

"But instead you lowered your weapon and embraced me for a kiss Shabhira would forever remember." She sighed. "That's when Khajiit did what had to be done."

Gatz felt as if though the ground started to fall apart beneath him. It all made sense now. His nightmares. Shabhira had never been the monster that had haunted him during the nights. The nightmares were the reflections of his own guilt. He was the monster.

"Shabhira pulled her gun on you and fired", she said. "You have no idea how hard that was. Khajiit loved you, but you had turned evil and had to be put down. She left you there in that mass grave, alongside our slaughtered brothers and sisters. Your doing."

She looked up at him. "And then years later rumors started circulating about this amazing assassin the Guild had aquired. A Khajiit that could make the most impossible kills become possible. Shabhira didn't really believe that you had survived until she heard that the Guild had sent out the best assassin they had in order to get rid off her, that's how she knew you were alive, my love."

He couldn't stop crying. It stung in his empty socket. He felt so full of guilt and shame he wanted to pull out a gun, press it against his head and hope that the third bullet to his skull would be the final.

She stroke his cheek. "All is in the past now, Da'Shanji. Those who are to blame for this are the Guild and not you. They probably found you back at that pit and took you back, seeing you as a valuable asset. Your amnesia made it all easier for them to fill your head with lies about this one and her siblings. They told you that your name was Gatz and how they had rescued you, but Shabhira bets that they left out the part where they had hired you to kill your own brothers and sisters in exchange for wealth and power. A reward they now never had to pay since you wouldn't remember the deal in the first place."

"Please", he snivelled. "Khajiit is sorry... sorry for all he has done... Just... just take this one back to the pit and let him rest with his kin..."