Board Thread:Skyrim/@comment-10207438-20130605182139/@comment-8248675-20131229060327

In 4 years of us being together, we didn't had any children, we do consider our two kitten twins our children. We got them last year when I was working a job in New Jersey and we had to live in horible conditions. A grey, boy kitten we named Smokey and a black, girl kitten we named Noxie (She's daddy's girl). My wife is a bit different, she was never much for the idea of having a human child (Except in the very begining, she though she could overcome herself). Honestly, we couldn't bring a child into this world, with both of us not standing firmly on our feet. That probably was one reason why she decided to try out something that can provide better environment. I tried my best to take chances with her that promised at least something, but nothing worked out and every time we came back to where we started...living with her parents. Even though technically the house that we rented was in our name, we were helping her family as well. Then we lost our source of income and her parents had to take over being responsible for keeping up with payment. Not easy when they work only minimum wage jobs in Michigan. Not to mention things happened in 2012 when I was in Jersey, her father couldn't provide anymore. After we had to come back another time, she sliped deeper into her depression and eventually I got frustrated enough from my helplessness, that I tried escaping into world of gaming myself (particularly Skyrim). Next thing I know, she met a guy trough FF XIV who seemed nice to her, he have a job, lives alone with a cat. In no time she decided she have something stronger with him and decided to go and try to see if that would be better. She was intending to take care of divorce before she left, but I didn't make it easy to talk about it...well I am already saying too much. Formaly we are still married and I haven't heard her mention that she is working on getting that divorce, only that she wants one and believes she cannot be my wife anymore. I do hope that this all just the rushness of her decision and she will learn at some point that that wasn't the best idea. I am preapared for anything, even finding someone else at one point (just not right away). If she will learn her mistake (if it indeed a huge mistake), I will understand and forgive her. As I said before, she is quite unique and quite stubborn and sometimes not exactly right on the head too. Not to mention that she had been depressed for sometime and that person seem to her as a salvation (she being there does help with getting out of that depression). I used to be able to help her before too, things just gotten worst. Anyways, thank you for understanding. Alyssa is a great woman, and I won't let anyone to talk bad about her or think any less of her just because she did that. I still love her, but trying to prepare myself for anything, I just hope that the fate will be merciful in that sense.