Board Thread:Roleplaying/@comment-12599067-20140824224301/@comment-11457306-20140912013255

(I appreciate all the hooplah being made about this, gentlemen.  I have some comments.

Billy, m'luv. Tegan has no way of knowing Bjol's history unless he tells her. She is noble herself and was schooled from an early age in how to act. She voluntarily left, but Bjol's behavior puzzles her. She meant no insult. She was actually trying to draw him out and find out what makes him tick.

I know Ulfric Stormcloak like the back of my hand. I may not know other lore, but I know him. My Dragonborn's have loved him, married him, lived with him, adventured with him. I've heard every line of dialogue there is. I've played the Stormcloak Questline over and over and over and continue to do so. He'd be pissed at both Tegan and Bjol. He'd expect us to fix the problem or die trying. As the author of the RP you are free to portray him any way you wish, but in Ulfric's words, don't hand me a mug of piss and tell me it's ale.

I believe I have honestly done my best with this RP. I have acted in good faith, perhaps a bit irritated at times, but Tegan is an irritable and irritating character. She's not one of my normal sweet ladies--she could not be and still accomplish what she needed to--what you asked me to accomplish in the first place.

Frankly, I have have completely run out of ideas for her and for Saga. I haven't got a clue how to proceed. If you'll recall, I recently called you to chat to give me some ideas on what to do next. I've NEVER done that before. Ideas just come to me. But not now. I've scraped the bottom of the barrel dry. No offense, but you have not helped. I say that completely without malice. The situation which has developed is just untenable to me.

In addition, I know that I am just spinning my wheels because there is no future for Tegan in the Fallen series. The only way I could continue with her is if by some miracle I found some other RP into which she fits. That seems highly unlikely to me.

On top of that, I am so upset by the circumstances that it intrudes upon my daily life. I find myself upset at work, unable to think. I am turning to my tranquilizers more and more often. So I realize that I must stop. I am unhappy, therefore the source of the unhappiness must be removed.

I am very, very sorry to everyone. I have done the best I can but I just can't take it any more.