User blog:Razielplaysskyrim/Bye.

Bye!
Okay, so most people here don't know but I went a little crazy on the Sandbox wiki. I've since apoligised and such but since then I've tried to figure out why I did what I did. I've always felt like an outcast and coming to wikia made me so happy. I'll always be grateful for the acceptance that I got here. I've been homeschooled for years now and I developed a huge amount of depression which I am still struggling with. I'm bipolar and am nowing going to start trying to figure out my obvious Dissociative Identity Disorder. I came here and all my problems were gone. But then my social anxiety surfaced. I turned mean and snappy and overall a total dickhead. I actually formed an alter ego/ new personality. Raziel. He protected me and kept everybody from hurting me. My family notice that I withdrew. Raziel was mean and cruel. He, paired with my intellect was vicious. Bringing multiple people in my family to tears. Multiple times. During the few times I've felt like myself I've tried to fix these things. But to no avail. It's too late. I used Raziel to hurt everybody, to make them feel my pain. I'm sorry. I, after being banned from the Sandbox literally went crazy breaking things and trolling uncontrollably. Since then my depression deepened. I started cutting and such. I see no end to this. The good was that Raz can't protect me from depression. He can't. He dissapeared. I don't know the point of this change to my profile. I just did it. I'm sorry if this letter seems selfish and all about me. That's because it is really. I've always helped others at the cost of helping myself and it's drove me insane. I'm done with wikia and if I don't get sufficient help. Life too. I miss roleplaying and the community I was once part of but until I get my shit together I won't come back again. I know me leaving is only a small bump in the wikia community but it's a huge part of my life. Goodbye. -Joshua,13