Board Thread:Roleplaying/@comment-12599067-20140809205711/@comment-11457306-20140821001120

(I agreed to help Billy with this RP.  Tegan was created to fulfill a specific role.  Novo is essential to the plot of future RP's.  There's a whole lot going on behind the scenes that only Billy and I know.  I am upset, yes, however, my irritation stems from the fact that Billy did not communicate to me up front that the character I would create would be disposable.  I made some assumptions that have been proven wrong.  I do not create disposable characters, Daedra.  Yes, Tegan could have a turning point.  However, it will take a long time for that to happen and be believable.  It took me 4 RP's to have that happen with Torene.  Tegan does not have that much time.

I apologize for venting. I had made a resolution not to make such negative statements and I lost it last night. I am undergoing a very difficult time at work for reasons which I will not outline except to say that I am being set up to fail and every detail of my behavior is being scrutinized, from my eating habits to to the way I dress--things that were never a problem before. I drive a very long way to work now that our office has been moved and I get up at 5 and don't come home until 6 or 6:30. I come home exhausted and already pissed off at what I've put up with all day. So, sometimes I lose it.

I will try to do better. I cannot abandon Billy now. I will stay until he wishes me to go.

Billy, I just wish you had never said anything about the Hat of Death and I wish that you would move this along so I can get past the pain. Thinking about how truly sad and desperate Tegan is makes me want to cry.