Board Thread:Roleplaying/@comment-24449631-20140817155437/@comment-3293219-20140819164632

(Okay, I've thought about this, I've talked about it with some people and I've even slept on it and I've come to my decision...

I think that I'm beyond sick and tired of rape and graphic torture being the central theme of this RP and more importantly, I'm tired of my characters and stories being the backdrop for someone else's wank material. Not to mention the fact that it's all already been done in Aube 1 (about a million times), which is partly why I didn't say anything before, because I thought 'hey, it's something new, let's give it a chance and see where they take it' but it never leads anywhere. It's never part of the story and I can't help but shake the feeling that most of the authors that do it are doing it, because it's a slow friday night and they want to spank it to something.

Not only is this the case but I can think of several occasions where I've been used to set the scene for such things, which isn't what I thought I'd be doing, when Nish first stepped into the Whiterun hold, last October. Unsung Heroes took a very jarring shift in tone, because of this problem and I've been feeling it slowly infecting my own ability to write characters and plots.

I know that I'm going to be the minority opinion here, so I guess that makes me the problem and thus, I'll simply remove myself as it's obviously unfair to ask anyone to change this. I'm just saying; that I'm uncomfortable with it, it's overdone to the point that it has been trivilised and it's getting more graphic and more repulsive every time it happens and it isn't even for the story's sake.

Basically, this has just turned into a points scoring exercise, where people just inflict shit things onto each other or on themselves and if that's the case, I don't think it's worth getting remotely invested in the characters or events, never mind putting any effort into my own. This juvinile use of adult themes is just not something I'm comfortable with being a part of, I like writing characters and stories and having my tragedy have an effect on those things, which none of this stuff seems to do. It's all in an effort of shock value these days and quite honestly, the only thing that shocks me is how it can have gone this long without anyone calling it out.

I'm sorry for being bitchy and having a big drama post but due to my recent illness, I can't put myself through the stress of shutting up and letting this thing play out. I heave like 3 times an hour on a stress free day, when I don't know what's going on. It's nobody's fault and I'm not having a go at anyone in particular as I think that we're all guilty of it, in some way or another but I just have my limits is all.

Sorry

Psycho)