Board Thread:Roleplaying/@comment-3293219-20140509162816/@comment-24123288-20140511194521

(Prepare to feel bad! The Emo within has clawed its way out...>3)

 Julie breathed heavily. Air was hard to reach her lungs she was crying that much. She opened her eyes between gulps, pulling her knees up to her chest as she hugged them''. ''

 ''Set… ''

 ''This is my entire fault… ''

 ''I…I really am worthless. Just a stupid nobody that always ends up in danger somehow. I… ''

 Julie paused, her expression flickering between determination and desperation as she stared at the object in her hands.

 ''If I wasn’t alive…He could be with her, he wouldn’t need to go rushing off to save her as often. He’d get hurt less. ''

 Julie slammed the back of her head off the door, ignoring the loud rattle it caused and wincing from the pain.

 She smiled…

 ''That made me feel better… ''

 ''It’s an outlet… ''

 ''I can’t betray Sarge again… ''

 ''I won’t forget what he said. ''

 ''It’d kill Set if I died. I can’t do that. I can’t break his heart…''

 ''However… ''

 ''I can distance myself. Yeah, sounds good. I can pretend like he doesn’t exist… ''

 ''Keep away from him so Maria can grow closer. ''

<p class="MsoNormal"> Again, Julie glanced downwards, her hand tightening around the hilt of the Ebony Dagger as she brought it close to her eye. The blade glinted in the dim lighting. She continued to admire the craftsmanship for sometime, still crying.

<p class="MsoNormal"> Eventually…Julie moved it to her wrist, using it to pull her shirt up to her elbow.

<p class="MsoNormal"> It’s gonna be hard Eilo…she thought, inhaling sharply as the cold blade rested against her skin.

<p class="MsoNormal"> ''But, if anyone can do this… ''

<p class="MsoNormal"> ''If anyone can survive breaking their own heart… ''

<p class="MsoNormal"> ''It’s you girl… ''

<p class="MsoNormal"> Julie closed her eyes, gasping as she pulled the knife across her arm, making a deep cut that bled heavily. She swayed where she sat, her head growing heavy.

<p class="MsoNormal"> ''An outlet for my pain and suffering is all I need. Physical pain is far simpler to deal with than emotional pain. ''

<p class="MsoNormal"> Julie felt her hand loosen, the knife dropping to the floor as she continued to gaze at the ceiling.

<p class="MsoNormal"> ''Keep on pretending to be strong. ''

<p class="MsoNormal"> ''It’s not that hard to pass off cuts as battle wounds… ''

<p class="MsoNormal"> ''Hide how you really feel… ''

<p class="MsoNormal"> ''It’s… ''

<p class="MsoNormal"> ''Easier that way… ''