Board Thread:Consensus Track/@comment-9062114-20140111214003/@comment-9062114-20140112221939

Okay, let me explain exactly why I'm so upset about all of this. In detail so you can all understand.

If you haven't realized, I got no supports from anyone on this forum. I got opposes from almost every moderator member of the staff. I got some supports from some friends, Ketick, and UAM, and I'm greatful for that, but I just want to point that out.

Getting opposesd simply because you don't like the way I debate is very hurtful. Because most of the time, it's simply someone who's frustrated I questioned their beliefs. I have never tried to start a flame war with people for any reason what so ever, but I do sometimes explain to people why I disagree with them. You've done it Pickle, you've Gold, you've done it Sky, and sometimes these debates do get heated, you've all been in those one time or another. Yet, it only matters when I'm in them. And I haven't gotten in the flame war for a while, I've specifically been trying to stop for this very reason, but obviously that's not good enough for you guys. The way you're describing it, it seems like you want me to stop giving my opinion on things period, since when I do and I might go back & fourth with someone you say how I argue too much. That's why I disliked Fishy's oppose. And is not liking my opinion really a good reason to say someone shouldn't be part of the staff? This is where I got the populairty idea from.

Sky, when you told me I should do more Moderator suited tasks, I took it to heart. I spent the days after answering questions non-stop, going into different catagories, etc. I even started editing pages more and adding links because I took what you said to heart. But yet just because I didn't move threads that were in the wrong catagory, even though I didn't know I could do that, you opposed me anyway. You left one message saying how to do it, on the Application page, which I didn't see, you also didn't tell me that you were going to downright oppose me for that, despite everything I was doing to try and show you guys that I wanted this (as well as to get myself in the habit of doing it, if I did get the part). If it was that important, why didn't you leave it on my talk page? This is why I sometimes feel like you just wanted an excuse to oppose me. Because me doing all the Moderator suited tasks was not good enough to excuse the fact I didn't do something I was unaware could even be done.

And last but not least, the whole Lyra incident on the Chat. She had been picking fights with me numerous times just because I had a different opinion than her on a certain couple of subjects, and after the third time of her doing this (it's still going on by the way), I ended up saying how if she didn't stop, someone should block her. Which made two new opposes of people saying how I would "abuse my power if given the title of Forum Moderator" and was called things like "selfish" and "immature". Not only did I have to get in completely uneccessary fights, but I also was the one blamed for them, and that can be seen on my application which is still up. Still wondering why I think people have a bias against me? I didn't insult Lyra once at that time, but she did to me many times, everyone saw it, but still sided against me.

The rest of the opposes were just people jumping on the band wagon, Crazy openly admitted he's opposing me simply because a lot of other people were. So now I'm getting opposed for literally no reason what so ever.

And then If I tell people how I feel the system is flawed for allowing all of this to happen, I'm labled as hot-headed or having aggression issues. I'm not angry everytime I question something. I'm not angry everytime I have a different opinion with someone and might talk to them about it. Yet, people still accuse me of this. And this is where the double standard comes in, other people also criticize the system for time to time, yet they're never labled as hot-headed. They're never told they have aggression issues. But when I do, it's suddently different.

So in case you're all wondering why I made this whole thing and why I'm making a "big deal" about this, it's because of all the reasons I stated above. I feel it is completely unfair the way I rejected. Does this answer all your questions? Because I hope it does.